Venus is retrograde and I'm just a couple of months behind. Not only am I already nostalgic over my sweet Oregon reunion complete with Taproot Magazine picnic with Amanda and Phoebe, childhood friends have been coming out of the woodwork to fill me up with teenage memories and then talk to me about their relationship woes. Top it all off with a new and free romantic frontier of my own and I'm looking at Venus for a lot of things right now.
And it's good. I'm having time and space to process and dissect what I really want and need for the upcoming seasons - staring out at a true blank slate. Looking for a place to live and newly single, thinking about the communities I want to be in and the nature of the work I want to do, the northwest town I want to live in, feeling inspired in different directions constantly (being 24 amirite??). All of these thoughts swirling around coupled with such a clear vision of what I want - I spend most of my time, that's not at the bakery, searching for *my place* - the little space where I can work and be for the upcoming months. The world, or even just the northwest, is so big I feel both overwhelmed and restricted, so many nice options, but then attaining the best ones is so competitive. I search, finally find an appealing place, and it's already been rented! As my search continues on and on my mind has turned to visions of building a little home myself, I suppose time will tell!
I'm sure I've said it before, but I feel so thankful to have traveled across the country to be welcomed in by such sweet and supportive friends. As soon as I made it into the northwest I was swimming in rivers, having picnics in the park, eating cantaloupe by the shoreline, hanging out in stumps and dancing around on the coast. And while I do occasionally miss my east coast homes, there is a certain richness of life here that's kinda too good to deny.